Friday, August 21, 2009
The start of hopefully a happy ending
OK I woke up this morning and as usual and went straight to the refrigerator, started to search for something to eat. I wasn't even hungry. Then i went on the computer and logged on to a healthy hair-board that I'm following called KISS (Founder Traycee) and saw that she's a mother of 4 but looks like she was in her teen and had never had kids. I'm a mother of 2 and i was envy of this woman that i don't even know. I saw my old self in her and wonder where did that person go.
I've put on about 50lbs in the last 7month and I really can't pinpoint exactly when i started to lose control like this. Put in mind, i use to be a workout-oholic, eat only fresh, low-sodium meals. I ran semi and full marathons. Very outgoing and had a positive outlook on life.
Some people might think that maybe i had a traumatic experience or had gotten depressed, but NO that not even close. Its just little by little i started not to give my all anymore. There were no specific reason why.
Now I know some of you might say well 50lbs isn't much, there are others trying to lose over 100lbs, and yes I agree, but someone that is usually 130lbs and now weighs over 180lbs. You have the same feeling as the person that wants to lose over 100lbs.
So this is the beginning of my journey to get back on track and find my physical happiness again.
Wish me good luck and some words of encouragement..